When I was young, I was unfortunately taught to expect a certain bargain out of life. "Work hard," they told me, "be nice to others, always do your best, and you'll be rewarded. Good things will come your way." Of course it isn't true. There is no bargain to be had with life, no contract you can sign that will remove the uncertainties, the unsatisfactoriness, and the occassional crippling blow.
The playa is different.
Last year, the playa made a bargain with me: "Go back out there into that crazy, hardhearted, messed-up world, and survive it for just another year. Get through twelve more months of all that frightful bullshit, and you'll get to come back here. You'll get to come back home."
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